স্বভাবতঃই-
দালানে
বৃষ্টির দাগ মুছে যায়
য্যামোন
মুছে যায় স্মৃতি ---
প্রস্তুতিহীন
সহবাসের।
থেকে
যায় -- কারো
চামড়ার স্বপ্নাতুর ঘ্রাণ
নিষিদ্ধ
ঠোঁটে আর্দ্র চুম্বন
গেরস্ত
বালকের মুখে
সামুদ্রিক
নোনা স্বাদ।
থেকে
যায় – ঝাউবনে বিঁধে থাকা
বাতাসের মত
কারো
অগোছালো চুলে
অবশ্যম্ভাবী
বিদায়ের দীর্ঘশ্বাস।
I was killed twice – once on a Monday noon and for the last time on another Monday noon.
I don’t know whether it’s called Renaissance or Reincarnation but while writing this, I was being chopped like an onion on my bed under a fine edged knife gripped by an expert chef.
I could feel the salty sharpness of the knife, the warmth of my killer’s breaths and the tears …. don’t know whether the last one was out of emotion or the spicy tang.
A very few of the victims of a serial killer can feel and enjoy the masochistic pleasure of being killed and make an emotional attachment while doing, or helping each other, the whole act together.
And fewest of the victims are cooperative and curious enough to draw the knife to the pleasure points where pain and eroticism exist together.
Keeping the eyes closed, the serial killer was perhaps thinking of a perfect victim and was not satisfied at all.
A perfect serial killer, on the other hand, like
those medieval Japanese artists, of whom I’ve heard from a learned
senior friend, who make a new start from scratch– forgetting their
previous mastery.
A killer’s job is killing, yet the victim’s limbo wander on the spot either with a sudden numbness or, in the rarest case, a curiosity of enjoying the art and observing if the acts of post killing are done perfectly.
I was looking at my dismembered limbs, obviously as a limbo, and observing if the killer was satisfied and fully enjoyed the murder.
Sometimes, at some point, the hunter and the prey feel the same emotion like they were two strings of a musical instrument tuned for composing a piece.
I was looking at my dismembered limbs, obviously as a limbo, and observing closely if the killer was satisfied and fully enjoyed the murder …………………
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